22 Nov Meeting the Menopause
As if I am writing about the menopause at 40 I mean really whats that all about….But here I am just turned 40, I know I don’t look it (wishful thinking) and into my 5th month of menopause and it’s not a walk in the park I can tell you.
I have not come into this naturally or happily I assure you, so a few years ago I was diagnosed with adenomyosis, now for those of you who don’t know what that is I will copy and past from Wikipedia for you 🙂
Adenomyosis (pronounced A – den – oh – my – oh – sis) is a medical condition characterized by the presence of ectopic glandular tissue found in the muscular wall of the uterus (myometria). The term adenomyosis is derived from the Greek terms adeno- (meaning gland), myo- (meaning muscle), and -osis (meaning condition). Previously named asendometriosis interna, but adenomyosis differs from endometriosis and these two diseases represent two separate entities. They are found together in many cases.
It usually refers to ectopic endometrial tissue (the inner lining of the uterus) within the myometrium (the thick, muscular layer of the uterus). The term “adenomyometritis” specifically implies involvement of the uterus.
The condition is typically found in women between the ages of 35 and 50 but can also be present in younger women.Patients with adenomyosis can have painful and/or profuse menses (dysmenorrhea & menorrhagia, respectively). Other possible symptoms are pain during intercourse (dyspareunia), chronic pelvic pain and irritation of the urinary bladder.
Adenomyosis may involve the uterus focally, creating an adenomyoma. With diffuse involvement, the uterus becomes bulky and heavier.
There you go see now you know, so the only real way to cure this is to have a hysterectomy so there I was 37 in a lot of pain so I will just have the gear box out right? WRONG as I don’t get to make that choice apparently it takes some 3 years to convince the doctors I don’t want any more children never mind the fact Mr A had the snip before I could finish the “i would really like another bab….” so I kept a diary for a month of the pain etc I was experiencing and went to my GP with a ‘I want this done and I want it done now’ attitude. The lady said YES!!!! home and dry baby, or so I thought. I was referred to the consultant, he had other ideas and said that due to my other medical conditions he would only consider the full hysterectomy I wanted if I could show my body would cope with the menopause and HRT, now those of you who know me know I do not like to be told no! even though i could understand his reasoning I wasn’t happy.
So 2nd December I started Zoladex which is a brutal injection directly into the stomach once a month and for the lack of medical terms here it makes your body think you have already had the Gearbox removed thus forcing you into a menopause to help with this they give you HRT.
After a few months on these treatments’ I have a sudden real sympathy with any woman who has gone through or is going through the menopause.
I am like a walking radiator who has a dodgy switch and could literally blow up at any time, I feel like I am like one of those new snap chat thingy where the nice cute bunny rabbit turns into an evil red eyed monster.
Mr A walks in the other day and I am crying on the floor, why you ask, what could possibly be wrong….. I couldn’t reach the plug socket for my hairdryer!!! That was it… he looked at me and said very calmly with a straight face “do I hug you, ignore you, laugh at you or throw chocolate and take cover” within seconds I am laughing and then back to crying
Now you have heard people say Ohh I am having a hot flush and you think of jeez man up bitch, then you experience them and you feel the need to apologise to every person you ever thought this about as they are instant and shock you as to how hot you can get, I said to my friend “omg I can’t cope I am so frigging hot” her reply “you ain’t all that bitch LOL” seriously they are horrible I was stripping the bed most days and even had to check I hadn’t wet myself as it was “that” wet. But this is the kicker right you can go to freezing just as quick, I go out shopping in just a T-shirt and everyone looks at me like “which weather forecast did she see?”
I am due to have the hysterectomy in 8 weeks as other than all this the treatment has been fine and it has helped with the pain etc..
I have also learnt that I can be a bitch and then say it’s the change and everyone just accepts it :p
until next time